This blog tells the tale of how a trip to my local medical centre, turned into one of the most emotional afternoons that I have had in a very long time. Today has been a good day. Today, my faith in humanity has well and truly been restored! 

Today was a day I had been dreading for quite awhile.  I am a type one(insulin dependent) diabetic and my annual NHS eye-screening appointment was booked in for 4pm.  My diabetes is reasonably well controlled so my anxiety didn’t concern this, it more concerned the fact that for the past six to seven years I have had severe contamination Obsessive Compulsive Disorder!

My trigger was when I went to my local health centre and unknowingly sat in something extremely unpleasant whilst I waited for a blood test(I’ll give you a clue, starts with the letter ‘S’ and rhymes with lick).  It made me go completely into my shell, I’m a shadow of the person I used to be right now.  Only now am I starting to get the help that I’ve needed for ages now I’ve changed hospitals.  Only now can I see light at the end of the tunnel concerning me and OCD.

As I went into the room to have my eye test done, I asked these two middle-aged female nurses if it would it be OK if I stood up whilst they did the test on me(including having the eye drops put in).  They were very accommodating and wanted to help me the best way that they could with regards to my phobia of not wanting to sit down at a doctors.  As we waited for the eye drops to work we then got chatting about my mental health struggles, it was therefore this then that sparked an afternoon of high emotion. Emotion that I was grateful to experience though, emotion that made me happy to be alive!

As I told them about my mental health issues, these two ladies were just so wonderfully supportive to me about it all.  Both shared with me that their lives had been touched by close family members having traumatic mental health battles.  One of them was so overjoyed for me that I was finally getting help, that she got overcome with emotion and had to leave the room for a brief second.  When she came back the conversation continued.  It was sooooo lovely the encouragement that they showed towards me.  ‘You’ll get there’ one of them said to me as I then welled up with tears.  I just felt such a strong emotional connection with them both.  It made me proud of our NHS and that there are indeed good people out there that exist like these two healthcare workers.

I came out the building feeling ten foot tall and just all overcome with happy emotion deep inside.  What had promised to be a day of great dread turned out to be a great day of happiness.  It was a great pleasure today to have met these two wonderful nurses   It was a great pleasure today to have had this UNEXPECTED MOMENT OF EMOTION!!