Today has been another good day on the OCD front.  Therefore, it’s time to shout it from the rooftops once again.  I’m on a bit of a roll you see, I’M FINALLY FIGHTING BACK!

Two weeks ago, I did the amazing exposure thing of sitting down on a bus.  That was the first time I had sat down on a bus in AT LEAST EIGHT YEARS!  If you read the blog I did about it then you’ll have read that this was to do with my Obsessive Compulsive Disorder, an irrational fear that vomit is everywhere.

On the back of this massive step forward with the bus business, I recently vowed to my mother that I needed to sit down on a bus again very soon.  As I uttered these words to her, the thought and prospect of doing so filled me great fear.  Nevertheless, if the first time I sat down on a bus in such a long time was to mean anything, then I knew I had to do it again soon.  This therefore was my target for this week.

The aim was to sit down on a bus on my way home from a medical appointment this Thursday afternoon, therefore today I would be standing up I’d decided.  I’m not sure what came over me today but I’d only been on the bus for about two seconds on my way to therapy, when I took the bold move to take a seat once more.  The feeling felt scary but it also felt great.  I felt like shouting to everybody else on the bus something like, ‘LOOK EVERYBODY, LOOK WHAT I’M DOING AGAIN, I’M NOT LETTING OCD BULLY ME ANYMORE, I’M HITTING THIS BASTARD RIGHT WHERE IT HURTS’!!

When I saw my therapist I did an embarrassing fist-bump in her direction ha ha ha ha, but I was just still buzzing from having sat down on the bus.  On the journey home, I SAT DOWN ON THE BUS AGAIN can you believe!!!  This means that in the space of just two weeks I’ve now sat down on a bus THREE times now and coped.  This is compared to the last eight years when I didn’t even get on a bus, never mind sit down on one.

It just feels soooooooooooo good to be continually making baby steps forwards with my once debilitating, disabling and tortuous OCD.  I am starting to feel excited about life once again and I love this newfound feeling.

Therefore, today I say loudly and proudly, I SAT DOWN ON THE BUS AGAIN……….F-OFF OCD!!