Hello everybody, it has been awhile my friends!

I guess I haven’t written a blog since March 2019, because quite frankly I didn’t feel the need to.  I have been super busy with my OCD recovery and trying to improve my CV(want to get into writing).  I didn’t feel the need to unburden myself in a blog like I used to.

I am still enjoying writing the TV show reviews for Tellybinge.co.uk. Nevertheless, I decided to stop sharing them in my blog too because it became a hassle I could do without, i.e extra work.

The OCD is still with me don’t get me wrong, but it’s not causing me the same amount of distress like it once did thank goodness.  There was a point in my life about eight years ago where I did not want to be here anymore.  Whereas now, I feel lucky to be alive in fact.  I’m grateful to live my life now, in a way that I’ve never experienced before.

I’ve lost the bitterness that I once had about my life.  For those of you that don’t know really know me, I’ve suffered with very serious physical and mental health issues since I was about sixteen to seventeen years old.  I’ve learnt that being angry all the time just makes me tired and sad all of the time.  It is wasted energy, so I’ve decided to try and not be a victim anymore.

This newfound inner peace I now have about my life I think is down to me maturing(now in my early forties), the mental health meds and also continuing to practice CBT(Cognitive Behavioural Therapy).

Why then have I decided to do a blog again all of a sudden you may ask??? Well to be honest, firstly, I needed a therapeutic unloading of how I’m feeling right now.  I feel like a bit of a cry if I’m honest.  My sister’s eight year old dog got rushed into the vets over the last few days.  It is touch and go whether he’ll make it(acute kidney failure), we get the all important test results back in two days time.  I should point out that I had a therapeutic cry yesterday about it all in fact, so don’t be worrying I’m holding my feelings back.

I know I’m biased, however he really is the perfect dog.  Like his Uncle Andy(me), he’s super cute, intelligent and really funny ha ha!  No seriously now(about the dog), he makes Lassie look like Mr Bean, I’ve never met a more intelligent animal.  He is that bright that we’ve all been convinced for months that he considers himself to be human and not dog ha ha!

My second main reason for writing this blog, is that I wanted to cheer myself up by writing down some things that I like about myself.  I saw somebody I follow on Twitter do a blog of twenty-six things they like about themselves.  I’m not sure I could get to twenty-six, so I’ll aim for ten good ones(ever the perfectionist ha ha.)

Here goes then.  I hope you don’t mind me showing-off about myself, however it’s all done in the name of trying to cheer myself up!

1.  MY BRILLIANT SENSE OF HUMOUR – My dad was a constant joker and so I think me being one too, must be a genetic type thing.  Laughter is my main coping strategy in life.  No matter what rubbish life throws at me(within reason of course), then I try and find the humour in it.  It’s either you laugh or cry and I try and do the former most days now!

2.  I’M VERY MORALISTIC –  By this I mean that I have good strong morals.  I always open doors for people.  I always make a big point of saying ”thank you” to the till operator in a shop.  I always let old people get on the bus before me.  I always stand up on public transport if an elderly person can’t find a seat.  I am like this because my dear mum and dad brought me up the right way and I love them for this!

3. I’M STILL VERY SENSITIVE –  Years ago I used to be too sensitive I’ll admit.  Whereas now, I think I’ve found a nice balance.  I love being so open with my feelings and wearing my heart on my sleeve.

4. MY FASHION SENSE – I love my unique fashion sense should we say ha ha.  I hate unoriginal things in life, so I try and apply this to what I wear.  I have my own look(with a scarf usually).  I guess I want to stand-out a bit, look different in an attractive sense.

5.  MY ABILITY TO TALK……….LOTS!! – I love how chatty I am.  Seriously, just imagine the most talkative person you know of, THEN TIMES IT BY TEN AND THAT’S ME hahahaha! I can talk to anybody about anything, and be amusing with it!

OK, I’m going to stop at 5, I’m struggling ha ha! No, I’m not going to remark on my AMAZING GOOD LOOKS or my MASSIVE INTELLIGENCE cos that would be too big-headed, even for me hahahaha!

Thank you for reading this blog.  I have really enjoyed writing it and it has really been therapeutic for me.  I started off writing this blog all sad, but now I end it having made myself chuckle.

I just hope and pray my sister’s dog pulls through.  Take care my friends and I’ll write another blog soon.  Thank you and best wishes, Andy x.