Category Archives: DEPRESSION

I FEEL LIKE CRYING HAPPY TEARS THAT MY CHRONIC PAIN HAS FINALLY STARTED TO DECREASE….BUT I’M SCARED TOO JUST YET!

Posted on April 16, 2016 by SCARFMAN

“If I can’t get back on the anti-inflammatories then my life is over. I won’t be able to cope with physio on my pelvis, having a girlfriend or going out five days a week for a job”. In the last … Continue reading →

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SUFFERING FROM ILL HEALTH CAN BE HEARTBREAKING AND SOUL DESTROYING AT TIMES, ESPECIALLY WHEN NOT EVERYBODY BELIEVES YOU!

Posted on February 25, 2016 by SCARFMAN

“You sure you’re not getting obsessed with your bits”? A GP said this to me once. “I think we discussed this last time how you’re maybe getting obsessed with your blood sugars”. A Diabetic Nurse said this to me once. … Continue reading →

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17 years ago today my dad died, but the pain of losing him will live with me forever

Posted on October 31, 2015 by SCARFMAN

October 31st 1998 was without doubt the worst day of my life so far. It was worse than when I got told by a doctor twelve months later, that I needed an investigation to make sure I did not have … Continue reading →

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MY LYMPHOEDEMA IS IMPROVING AND ALL I HAVE DONE IS………..EXERCISE MORE!

Posted on October 29, 2015 by SCARFMAN

“Lymphoedema is a chronic condition that causes swelling when the lymphatic system is not able to drain fluid properly”.(Google search). “Lymphoedema is a swelling that develops as a result of an impaired lymphatic system. This may be as a result of … Continue reading →

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UTTERLY COMPELLING AND UTTERLY BRILLIANT! River – Review of episode two.

Posted on October 21, 2015 by SCARFMAN

Last year I can still remember just how amazing it felt to watch the BBC1 crime/police drama Happy Valley. It was that brilliant that it sort of felt like a privilege to watch such a fantastic piece of work. I … Continue reading →

Posted in ANXIETY, BBC, BBC DRAMA, BBC ORIGINAL DRAMA, BBC1, death, DEPRESSION, DRAMA, EMOTION, ENTERTAINMENT, FRIENDSHIP, grief, mens health, MENTAL HEALTH, POPULAR CULTURE, TELEVISION, THE ARTS, TV, TV REVIEW, UK TV, Uncategorized | Tagged #BBCDRAMA, #STELLANSKARSGARD, #TVREVIEW, ABI MORGAN, ALONE, ALOOF, anxiety, BBC, BBC ONE, BBC ORIGINAL DRAMA, BBC TELEVISION, BBC1, BRITISH TELEVISION, BRITISH TV, CRIME DRAMA, death, DEPRESSION, DETECTIVE GENRE, DI JOHN RIVER, DRAMA, EDDOE MARSAN, EMOTION, entertainment, Family, FILM NOIR, friendship, GEORGINA RICH, Grief, HAPPY VALLEY, i'm in the mood for dancing, ISOLATED, JOHN RIVER, LARS VON TRIER, LESLEY MANVILLE, LONER, mental health, MISE-EN-SCENE, MISSING, MYSTERY, NICOLA WALKER, NORDIC, NORDIC NOIR, OWEN TEAL, PARANOIA, POLICE DRAMA, popular culture, REVIEW, RIVER, RIVER EPISODE TWO/2 REVIEW, river review, RIVER TV SERIES, ROSA FALLOWS, SORCHA CUSACK, STELLAN SKARSGARD, TELEVISION, TELEVISION REVIEW, THE ARTS, THE MISSING, THE NOLAN SISTERS, the nolans, THRILLER, TV, TV CRITIC, tv review, UNCATEGORISED, writing | Leave a comment

‘THE LARS VON TRIER OF THE DETECTIVE WORLD’! RIVER- A review, episode one.

Posted on October 14, 2015 by SCARFMAN

Whenever I see a trailer of new police/detective drama series coming on, I tend to not pay much attention to it these days because I have reached saturation point with this genre. I am bored of this TV genre and … Continue reading →

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‘HOPE IS THE ONLY THING THAT KEEPS ME ALIVE’ – MY ‘MIND’ SUMMER CREATIVE WRITING COMPETITION ENTRY ON THE THEME OF HOPE.

Posted on October 13, 2015 by SCARFMAN

HOPE IS THE ONLY THING THAT KEEPS ME ALIVE! Ever woken up wishing you had not? I do not mean because you fancy another half-hour or so in bed, I mean because your whole being is CRIPPLED with anxiety … Continue reading →

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I WILL ALWAYS BE A SOFT, SENSITIVE AND EMOTIONAL MAN. I AM SO GLAD THAT I AM TOO…….WELL, MOST OF THE TIME!

Posted on October 11, 2015 by SCARFMAN

I will always be a SOFT, SENSITIVE and EMOTIONAL MAN. This is a fact of life that I do not mind one bit. Well OK, at times I wish was a bit harder, bit rougher around the edges but that … Continue reading →

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THEY’RE ALIVE…….I HAVE CORE MUSCLES AFTER ALL. MY DEVASTATING SUFFERING WITH CHRONIC PELVIC PAIN…..BUT HOPEFULLY NOT DEVASTATING FOR MUCH LONGER!

Posted on October 9, 2015 by SCARFMAN

IT IS OFFICIAL, MY CORE MUSCLES DO EXIST AND IT IS NO LONGER A MYTH! Yesterday was the first time in years that I did not feel pain upon walking. It shocked me at first if I am honest. I … Continue reading →

Posted in ANXIETY, DEPRESSION, EMOTION, HEALTH, MENTAL HEALTH, NHS, Uncategorized | Tagged ABDOMEN, anxiety, APPEARENCE, BACK PAIN, BARBER'S, BLADDER, BODY, BODY IMAGE ISSUES, CHRONIC BACTERIAL PROSTATITIS, CHRONIC PAIN, CHRONIC PELVIC PAIN, CONFIDENCE, CORE, CORE MUSCLES, cricket, CRICKET CAPTAIN, dad, DEGREE, DEPRESSION, DEVASTATION, DIET, DIETING, DISAPPOINTMENT, DISASTER, EMOTION, EXCITEMENT, EXERCISE, Family, FOOTBAL, football, GOLF, Health, ILL HEALTH, ILLNESS, INFLAMED PELVIS, INFLAMMATION, INSECURITY, IRRITABLE BLADDER, KEGEL KEGAL EXERCISES, LATE DAD, LOWER BACK PAIN, LOWER BACK PIAIN, male health problem, MEDICINE, MENS HEALTH, mental health, MOTIVATION, MUSCLES TOO TIGHT, MYTH, NHS, ORDEAL, OVERWEIGHT, pain, PELVIC, PELVIC FLOOR, PELVIC FLOOR TRIGGER POINT RELEASE, PELVIC GIRDLE PAIN, PELVIS, physical health, physio, physiotherapy, PITCH N PUTT, PROSTATE INFECTION, PROSTATITIS, QUERCETIN, SCHOOL CRICKET, SCHOOL FOOTBALL, SCIATIC NERVE, SCIATIC PAIN, SCIATICA, SELF LOATHING, SENSITIVE, soccer, SPORT, SPORTS FAN, TENNIS, TILTED PELVIS, TOO TIGHT, UNCATEGORISED, UNIVERSITY, urology | Leave a comment

“FATTY, BUM BUM…..” DAY SEVEN OF MY FIRST EVER DIET AND ALREADY I FEEL BETTER FOR IT!

Posted on September 29, 2015 by SCARFMAN

“Fatty, bum bum….oi Mister, can you lend us some money? Fatty, bum bum” These words got shouted at me one evening whilst I was walking home from the doctors in the early part of the summer this year. They were … Continue reading →

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Category Archives: DEPRESSION

I FEEL LIKE CRYING HAPPY TEARS THAT MY CHRONIC PAIN HAS FINALLY STARTED TO DECREASE….BUT I’M SCARED TOO JUST YET!

17 years ago today my dad died, but the pain of losing him will live with me forever

UTTERLY COMPELLING AND UTTERLY BRILLIANT! River – Review of episode two.

‘THE LARS VON TRIER OF THE DETECTIVE WORLD’! RIVER- A review, episode one.

THEY’RE ALIVE…….I HAVE CORE MUSCLES AFTER ALL. MY DEVASTATING SUFFERING WITH CHRONIC PELVIC PAIN…..BUT HOPEFULLY NOT DEVASTATING FOR MUCH LONGER!

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