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‘HOPE IS THE ONLY THING THAT KEEPS ME ALIVE’ – MY ‘MIND’ SUMMER CREATIVE WRITING COMPETITION ENTRY ON THE THEME OF HOPE.
HOPE IS THE ONLY THING THAT KEEPS ME ALIVE! Ever woken up wishing you had not? I do not mean because you fancy another half-hour or so in bed, I mean because your whole being is CRIPPLED with anxiety … Continue reading →
Posted in ANXIETY, cellulitis, death, DEPRESSION, DIABETES, EMOTION, FAMILY, grief, HAROLD LLOYD, HEALTH, LYMPH GLANDS, LYMPHOEDEMA, mens health, MENTAL HEALTH, NHS, OCD, RANT, social media, THE ARTS, TRUE STORIES, Uncategorized
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Tagged #MENTALHEALTH, #PELVICPAIN, A-LEVELS, ALIVE, ANGUISH, BACK PAIN, BACTERIAL PROSTATITIS, BEREAVEMENT, BEREAVEMENT COUNSELLING, BLADDER, BLOGGING, BOMBSHELL, CAREER, CAREER GOALS, CHRONIC BACTERIAL PROSTATITIS, COLLEGE, CONTAMINATED, CONTAMINATION, COUNSELLING, CREATIVE WRITING, CRIPPLED, CRIPPLED WITH FEAR, dad, DAD DYING, death, DEGREE, DEPRESSED, DEPRESSION, DESPERATE, DEVASTATION, DIABETES, DOCTORS, DOCTORS SURGERY, DOG POO, DOG SHIT, DREAD, DREAMS, DYING, EMPATHY, FATHER DIED, fear, FEAR OF TRAVELLING, FEELINGS, FIGHT, FIGHTER, FRIENDS, frightened, FUNERAL, GALLBLADDER, GALLBLADDER SURGERY, GALLSTONES, GILMORE'S GROIN, GPS, Graduating, GRADUATION, GREIVING, Grief, HAROLD LLOYD, Health, HERNIA, HERNIA SUGERY, HONEST, HOPE, HORSE MUCK, HORSE POO, HUMAN SPIRIT, ILL, ILL HEALTH, INSPIRATION, INSPIRING, IRRITABLE BLADDER, LATE FATHER, LIFE GOALS, LIFE STRUGGLES, LIVERPOOL, LIVERPOOL JOHN MOORES UNIVERSITY, LIVING AWAY FROM HOME, living with OCD, LJMU, LOWER BACK PAIN, LYMPH GLANDS, LYMPHOEDEMA, memories, mental health, MENTAL HEALTH STORY, MENTAL HEALTH THOUGHTS, mental illness, MENTAL PAIN, MIND, MIND CREATIVE WRITING COMPETITION, MOTHER, MUM, NASTY SMELLS, NERVE COMPRESSION, NHS, NO HAPPY ENDING, Obsessive Compulsive Disorder, OCD, OCD AWARENESS WEEK, OCD FLARE UP, pain, PANIC ATTACK, PELVIC GIRDLE PAIN, PELVIC PAIN, PENGUIN PUBLISHING, PHOBIA, PHOBIAS, physical health, PHYSICAL PAIN, PROSTATE CANCER, PROSTATE GLAND, PROSTATE HEALTH, PROSTATE INFECTION, PROSTATITIS, PSYCHOLOGIST, PSYCHOLOGY, rib pain, sacroiliac joint, SCIATICA, SHOCK, SICK, SINUS SURGERY, SISTER, SMELL PHOBIA, SMELLS, SPONDYLOLISTHESIS, SUFFERING, SUICIDE, SWOLLEN LOWER LEGS, TOUCH, TRUE STORY, UNIVERSITY, UNIVERSITY LIFE, UNUSUAL OCD, UPSET, VOMIT, writing
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NEVER FELT SO ANGRY, FRUSTRATED AND DEPRESSED AS I DO RIGHT NOW….ESPECIALLY ABOUT THE OCD!
ANGRY, FRUSTRATED AND DEPRESSED…….this is how I feel right now. I have been feeling like this for at least the last three years if I am honest, but last night as I went to bed these feelings were utterly overwhelming … Continue reading →
Posted in ANXIETY, COMPLIMENT, DEPRESSION, EMOTION, HEALTH, LYMPH GLANDS, LYMPHOEDEMA, NHS, OCD, skin infection, TRUE STORIES, twitter, Uncategorized
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Tagged ANGER, ANGRY, ANGUISH, anxiety, ANXIOUS, BACK PAIN, banter, BLOGGING, CAREER, CATHARTIC, CHRONIC PELVIC PAIN, CONTAMINATION, CONTAMINATION FLARE-UP, DEPRESSED, DEPRESSION, DOCTORS, DOG DIRT, DOG DIRT FEAR, DOG DIRT PHOBIA, Family, fear, FIGHT, FLARE-UP, FRUSTRATED, frustration, GALLBLADDER REMOVED, GALLBLADDER SURGERY, GPS, Health, HEARTACHE, HEARTBREAK, HERNIA SUGERY, HOPE, ILL HEALTH, JOB, JOBLESS, laughter, LIFE, LOWER BACK PAIN, LUMBAR SPINE BACK PAIN, MALE HEALTH, MALE MENTAL HEALTH, MENS MENTAL HEALTH, mental health, MENTAL HEALTH SUPPORT, MENTAL HEALTH TREATMENT, MIND, MIND MANCHESTER, MIND MENTAL HEALTH CHARITY, MIND UK, MISERY, nerves, NHS, NO HOPE, O.C.D, Obsessive Compulsive Disorder, OCD, OCD ACTION UK, OCD UK, PELVIC GIRDLE PAIN, PELVIC PAIN, physical health, sad, SADNESS, SELF HARM, SINUS SURGERY, SPONDYLOLISTHESIS, SUFFERING, SUICIDAL THOUGHTS, SUICIDE, SUPPORT, UNIVERSITY, UNLOADING, UPSET, WRITER, writing, WRITING CAREER
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CRIPPLED…………………….WITH FEAR! MY CONTINUING AWFUL STRUGGLE WITH OCD!
Ever woken up wishing you had not? I do not mean because you fancy another half-hour or so in bed, I mean because your entire being is CRIPPLED with anxiety and fear? Fear about confronting the day ahead because you … Continue reading →
Posted in ANXIETY, DEPRESSION, EMOTION, HEALTH, LYMPH GLANDS, LYMPHOEDEMA, mens health, MENTAL HEALTH, NHS, OCD, RANT, TRUE STORIES, Uncategorized
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Tagged anxiety, ASPERGER'S SYNDROME, BORDERLINE PSYCHOTIC, CAN'T COPE, CONTAMINATION, CRIPPLED WITH FEAR, DEPRESSION, DIARY, DOCTORS, DOCTORS SURGERY, DOG DIRT, DOG DIRT PHOBIA, DOG POO, EMOTION, fear, fed up, HEALH, HELP, HELPLESSNESS, ILL, ILL HEALTH, LIVERPOOL, LOWER BACK PAIN, LYMPH GLANDS, LYMPHOEDEMA, MALE MENTAL HEALTH, MENS HEALTH, MENTAL HEALTH STIGMA, MENTAL SUFFERING, MIND OCCUPATION, nerves, NHS, NO HOPE, Obsessive Compulsive Disorder, OCD, OCD STRUGGLES, PELVIC PAIN, PERSONAL, physical SUFFERING, PSYCHOSIS, rant, REAL LIFE, rib pain, SEVERE OCD, stigma, SUFFERING, SUICIDAL, SUICIDAL THOUGHTS, TORMENT, TRUE STORY, UNCATEGORISED, UNIVERSITY, WORRIES
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EXTREMELY ANXIOUS, WORRIED AND SCARED…THIS IS HOW I FEEL RIGHT NOW ABOUT GETTING MY LEG SCAN RESULTS TOMORROW!
This time tomorrow I will know the results of a leg scan I recently had……..AND I AM ABSOLUTELY BRICKING IT. It feels like the rest of my life and how it is going to pan out all rests on how … Continue reading →
Posted in ANXIETY, cellulitis, DEPRESSION, DIABETES, EMOTION, HEALTH, LYMPH GLANDS, LYMPHOEDEMA, mens health, MENTAL HEALTH, NHS, OCD, skin infection, TRUE STORIES, Uncategorized
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Tagged anxiety, awareness, CELLULITIS, DEPRESSION, DIABETES, DOCTORS, duplex leg scan, EMOTION, failure, Family, fear, frightened, frightenef, FRUSTRATED, frustration, Health, HOPE, hopelessness, LYMPH GLANDS, LYMPHOEDEMA, medical, MENS HEALTH, mental health, MISDIAGNOSIS, nervous, NHS, OCD, physical health, physio, pressure, REAL LIFE, scan, scan results, scared, SKIN INFECTION, SWOLLEN ANKLES, SWOLLEN FEET, SWOLLEN LEGS, SWOLLEN LOWER LIMBS, TRUE STORY, worried, WORRY, WRONG DIAGNOSIS
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