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‘HOPE IS THE ONLY THING THAT KEEPS ME ALIVE’ – MY ‘MIND’ SUMMER CREATIVE WRITING COMPETITION ENTRY ON THE THEME OF HOPE.
HOPE IS THE ONLY THING THAT KEEPS ME ALIVE! Ever woken up wishing you had not? I do not mean because you fancy another half-hour or so in bed, I mean because your whole being is CRIPPLED with anxiety … Continue reading →
Posted in ANXIETY, cellulitis, death, DEPRESSION, DIABETES, EMOTION, FAMILY, grief, HAROLD LLOYD, HEALTH, LYMPH GLANDS, LYMPHOEDEMA, mens health, MENTAL HEALTH, NHS, OCD, RANT, social media, THE ARTS, TRUE STORIES, Uncategorized
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Tagged #MENTALHEALTH, #PELVICPAIN, A-LEVELS, ALIVE, ANGUISH, BACK PAIN, BACTERIAL PROSTATITIS, BEREAVEMENT, BEREAVEMENT COUNSELLING, BLADDER, BLOGGING, BOMBSHELL, CAREER, CAREER GOALS, CHRONIC BACTERIAL PROSTATITIS, COLLEGE, CONTAMINATED, CONTAMINATION, COUNSELLING, CREATIVE WRITING, CRIPPLED, CRIPPLED WITH FEAR, dad, DAD DYING, death, DEGREE, DEPRESSED, DEPRESSION, DESPERATE, DEVASTATION, DIABETES, DOCTORS, DOCTORS SURGERY, DOG POO, DOG SHIT, DREAD, DREAMS, DYING, EMPATHY, FATHER DIED, fear, FEAR OF TRAVELLING, FEELINGS, FIGHT, FIGHTER, FRIENDS, frightened, FUNERAL, GALLBLADDER, GALLBLADDER SURGERY, GALLSTONES, GILMORE'S GROIN, GPS, Graduating, GRADUATION, GREIVING, Grief, HAROLD LLOYD, Health, HERNIA, HERNIA SUGERY, HONEST, HOPE, HORSE MUCK, HORSE POO, HUMAN SPIRIT, ILL, ILL HEALTH, INSPIRATION, INSPIRING, IRRITABLE BLADDER, LATE FATHER, LIFE GOALS, LIFE STRUGGLES, LIVERPOOL, LIVERPOOL JOHN MOORES UNIVERSITY, LIVING AWAY FROM HOME, living with OCD, LJMU, LOWER BACK PAIN, LYMPH GLANDS, LYMPHOEDEMA, memories, mental health, MENTAL HEALTH STORY, MENTAL HEALTH THOUGHTS, mental illness, MENTAL PAIN, MIND, MIND CREATIVE WRITING COMPETITION, MOTHER, MUM, NASTY SMELLS, NERVE COMPRESSION, NHS, NO HAPPY ENDING, Obsessive Compulsive Disorder, OCD, OCD AWARENESS WEEK, OCD FLARE UP, pain, PANIC ATTACK, PELVIC GIRDLE PAIN, PELVIC PAIN, PENGUIN PUBLISHING, PHOBIA, PHOBIAS, physical health, PHYSICAL PAIN, PROSTATE CANCER, PROSTATE GLAND, PROSTATE HEALTH, PROSTATE INFECTION, PROSTATITIS, PSYCHOLOGIST, PSYCHOLOGY, rib pain, sacroiliac joint, SCIATICA, SHOCK, SICK, SINUS SURGERY, SISTER, SMELL PHOBIA, SMELLS, SPONDYLOLISTHESIS, SUFFERING, SUICIDE, SWOLLEN LOWER LEGS, TOUCH, TRUE STORY, UNIVERSITY, UNIVERSITY LIFE, UNUSUAL OCD, UPSET, VOMIT, writing
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THEY’RE ALIVE…….I HAVE CORE MUSCLES AFTER ALL. MY DEVASTATING SUFFERING WITH CHRONIC PELVIC PAIN…..BUT HOPEFULLY NOT DEVASTATING FOR MUCH LONGER!
IT IS OFFICIAL, MY CORE MUSCLES DO EXIST AND IT IS NO LONGER A MYTH! Yesterday was the first time in years that I did not feel pain upon walking. It shocked me at first if I am honest. I … Continue reading →
Posted in ANXIETY, DEPRESSION, EMOTION, HEALTH, MENTAL HEALTH, NHS, Uncategorized
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Tagged ABDOMEN, anxiety, APPEARENCE, BACK PAIN, BARBER'S, BLADDER, BODY, BODY IMAGE ISSUES, CHRONIC BACTERIAL PROSTATITIS, CHRONIC PAIN, CHRONIC PELVIC PAIN, CONFIDENCE, CORE, CORE MUSCLES, cricket, CRICKET CAPTAIN, dad, DEGREE, DEPRESSION, DEVASTATION, DIET, DIETING, DISAPPOINTMENT, DISASTER, EMOTION, EXCITEMENT, EXERCISE, Family, FOOTBAL, football, GOLF, Health, ILL HEALTH, ILLNESS, INFLAMED PELVIS, INFLAMMATION, INSECURITY, IRRITABLE BLADDER, KEGEL KEGAL EXERCISES, LATE DAD, LOWER BACK PAIN, LOWER BACK PIAIN, male health problem, MEDICINE, MENS HEALTH, mental health, MOTIVATION, MUSCLES TOO TIGHT, MYTH, NHS, ORDEAL, OVERWEIGHT, pain, PELVIC, PELVIC FLOOR, PELVIC FLOOR TRIGGER POINT RELEASE, PELVIC GIRDLE PAIN, PELVIS, physical health, physio, physiotherapy, PITCH N PUTT, PROSTATE INFECTION, PROSTATITIS, QUERCETIN, SCHOOL CRICKET, SCHOOL FOOTBALL, SCIATIC NERVE, SCIATIC PAIN, SCIATICA, SELF LOATHING, SENSITIVE, soccer, SPORT, SPORTS FAN, TENNIS, TILTED PELVIS, TOO TIGHT, UNCATEGORISED, UNIVERSITY, urology
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“FATTY, BUM BUM…..” DAY SEVEN OF MY FIRST EVER DIET AND ALREADY I FEEL BETTER FOR IT!
“Fatty, bum bum….oi Mister, can you lend us some money? Fatty, bum bum” These words got shouted at me one evening whilst I was walking home from the doctors in the early part of the summer this year. They were … Continue reading →
Posted in ANXIETY, DEPRESSION, EMOTION, FOOD, HEALTH, LYMPH GLANDS, LYMPHOEDEMA, mens health, MENTAL HEALTH, NHS, OCD, RANT, social media, TRUE STORIES, Uncategorized
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Tagged ABUSE, anxiety, APPEARENCE, ATTRACTIVE, biscuits, BODY IMAGE, BODY IMAGE ISSUES, bread, calories, change of diet, CHRONIC BACTERIAL PROSTATITIS, CHRONIC PAIN, CHRONIC PELVIC PAIN, COMPRESSED NERVE, CONFIDENCE, crisps, DEPRESSED, DEPRESSION, DIABETES, DIAGNOSIS, DIET, dietician, DIETING, DOCTORS, eat too much, EATING HEALTHY, eating too much, EMOTION, EXERCISE, FAT, food, food blogger, GALLBLADDER, GIRLS, GPS, Graduating, GROWING UP, Health, HELPLESSNESS, HOSPITALS, HUNCHBACK, ILIOPSOAS, ILL HEALTH, ILLNESS, INFLAMED PELVIC, KEEP FIT, KICK UP THE BACK SIDE, LACK OF CONFIDENCE, LOOKS, LOWER BACK PAIN, LUMBAR SPINE BACK PAIN, LYMPH GLANDS, LYMPHOEDEMA, MENS HEALTH, mental health, MID LIFE CRISIS, MISDIAGNOSIS, MOTIVATION, nerves, NHS, nutrition, OCD, OVERWEIGHT, pain, PAINKILLER, PELVIC FLOOR, PELVIC FLOOR TRIGGER POINT RELEASE, PELVIC GIRDLE PAIN, PELVIC PAIN, physical health, PROSTATE, PROSTATE INFECTION, PROSTATITIS, PSOAS PAIN, rant, SCIATICA, SHY, SHYNESS, SLIM, slimline, SLIPPED VERTEBRATE, SOCIALISING, SPONDYLOLISTHESIS, SPORT, SPORTY, STREET ABUSE, STRESS, STRESSFUL, TILTED PELVIS, true stories, TRUE STORY, UGLY, UNATTRACTIVE, UNIVERSITY, VERBAL ABUSE, WAISTLINE, weight, white bread, WRONG DIAGNOSIS
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NEVER FELT SO ANGRY, FRUSTRATED AND DEPRESSED AS I DO RIGHT NOW….ESPECIALLY ABOUT THE OCD!
ANGRY, FRUSTRATED AND DEPRESSED…….this is how I feel right now. I have been feeling like this for at least the last three years if I am honest, but last night as I went to bed these feelings were utterly overwhelming … Continue reading →
Posted in ANXIETY, COMPLIMENT, DEPRESSION, EMOTION, HEALTH, LYMPH GLANDS, LYMPHOEDEMA, NHS, OCD, skin infection, TRUE STORIES, twitter, Uncategorized
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Tagged ANGER, ANGRY, ANGUISH, anxiety, ANXIOUS, BACK PAIN, banter, BLOGGING, CAREER, CATHARTIC, CHRONIC PELVIC PAIN, CONTAMINATION, CONTAMINATION FLARE-UP, DEPRESSED, DEPRESSION, DOCTORS, DOG DIRT, DOG DIRT FEAR, DOG DIRT PHOBIA, Family, fear, FIGHT, FLARE-UP, FRUSTRATED, frustration, GALLBLADDER REMOVED, GALLBLADDER SURGERY, GPS, Health, HEARTACHE, HEARTBREAK, HERNIA SUGERY, HOPE, ILL HEALTH, JOB, JOBLESS, laughter, LIFE, LOWER BACK PAIN, LUMBAR SPINE BACK PAIN, MALE HEALTH, MALE MENTAL HEALTH, MENS MENTAL HEALTH, mental health, MENTAL HEALTH SUPPORT, MENTAL HEALTH TREATMENT, MIND, MIND MANCHESTER, MIND MENTAL HEALTH CHARITY, MIND UK, MISERY, nerves, NHS, NO HOPE, O.C.D, Obsessive Compulsive Disorder, OCD, OCD ACTION UK, OCD UK, PELVIC GIRDLE PAIN, PELVIC PAIN, physical health, sad, SADNESS, SELF HARM, SINUS SURGERY, SPONDYLOLISTHESIS, SUFFERING, SUICIDAL THOUGHTS, SUICIDE, SUPPORT, UNIVERSITY, UNLOADING, UPSET, WRITER, writing, WRITING CAREER
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CRIPPLED…………………….WITH FEAR! MY CONTINUING AWFUL STRUGGLE WITH OCD!
Ever woken up wishing you had not? I do not mean because you fancy another half-hour or so in bed, I mean because your entire being is CRIPPLED with anxiety and fear? Fear about confronting the day ahead because you … Continue reading →
Posted in ANXIETY, DEPRESSION, EMOTION, HEALTH, LYMPH GLANDS, LYMPHOEDEMA, mens health, MENTAL HEALTH, NHS, OCD, RANT, TRUE STORIES, Uncategorized
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Tagged anxiety, ASPERGER'S SYNDROME, BORDERLINE PSYCHOTIC, CAN'T COPE, CONTAMINATION, CRIPPLED WITH FEAR, DEPRESSION, DIARY, DOCTORS, DOCTORS SURGERY, DOG DIRT, DOG DIRT PHOBIA, DOG POO, EMOTION, fear, fed up, HEALH, HELP, HELPLESSNESS, ILL, ILL HEALTH, LIVERPOOL, LOWER BACK PAIN, LYMPH GLANDS, LYMPHOEDEMA, MALE MENTAL HEALTH, MENS HEALTH, MENTAL HEALTH STIGMA, MENTAL SUFFERING, MIND OCCUPATION, nerves, NHS, NO HOPE, Obsessive Compulsive Disorder, OCD, OCD STRUGGLES, PELVIC PAIN, PERSONAL, physical SUFFERING, PSYCHOSIS, rant, REAL LIFE, rib pain, SEVERE OCD, stigma, SUFFERING, SUICIDAL, SUICIDAL THOUGHTS, TORMENT, TRUE STORY, UNCATEGORISED, UNIVERSITY, WORRIES
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ANOTHER SETBACK AND BODY BLOW……….I DO HAVE LYMPHOEDEMA AFTER ALL!
A week ago I had appointment at a local hospital where my worst fears were confirmed, I do indeed have a lifelong condition called lymphoedema(in my lower legs) after all. I say after all because I have had this possible … Continue reading →
Posted in ANXIETY, cellulitis, DEPRESSION, DIABETES, EMOTION, FAMILY, HEALTH, LYMPH GLANDS, LYMPHOEDEMA, mens health, MENTAL HEALTH, NHS, OCD, RANT, skin infection, TRUE STORIES, Uncategorized
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Tagged acidic, ANGUISH, ANKLE SWELLING, ANKLES, anxiety, BACK PAIN, body blow, CELLULITIS, CHRONIC BACTERIAL PROSTATITIS, chronic health problem, CHRONIC PAIN, CHRONIC PELVIC PAIN, COMPRESSION PUMP, COMPRESSION STOCKINGS, DEPRESSION, DIABETES, DIARY, DOCTORS, DOPPLER LEG SCAN, EMOTION, Family, fed up, FEELING, FLOWTRON, FLUID BUILD UP, FLUID RETENTION, GILMORE'S GROIN, Health, HERNIA, HOPE, ILL, ILL HEALTH, LEG SWELLING, LEGS, LIFE, LIPODEMA, lymph, LYMPH DRAINAGE, LYMPH DRANAGE, LYMPH GLAND EXERCISES, LYMPH GLANDS, lymphatic drainage, LYMPHODEMA, LYMPHOEDEMA, LYMPHOEDEMA CLINIC, LYMPHOGRAM, MANUAL LYMPH DRAINAGE, manual lymphatic drainage, MENS HEALTH, mental health, MLD, NATIONAL HEALTH SERVICE, NERVE COMPRESSION, NHS, NO CURE, Obsessive Compulsive Disorder, OCD, over acidic, over acidix, pain, PELVIC PAI N, physical health, POISONING, rant, REAL LIFE, SADNESS, SCIATICA, SETBACK, SINUS SURGERY, SKIN INFECTION, SLIPPED VERTEBRATE, SPONDYLOLISTHESIS, STOCKINGS, SWOLLEN LIMBS, TRAUMA, TYPE ONE DIABETES, UNCATEGORISED, UNCATEGORIZED, UPSET, VASCULAR, VASCULAR CONSULTANT, WOORY, WORRIES, WORRY
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ENOUGH OF THE DIABETIC SELF-PITY……THINGS COULD BE A LOT WORSE!
I know this blog is going to annoy some of my fellow diabetics out there but I can not hold my silence any longer. At the moment I am having a terrible flare-up with my Obsessive Compulsive Disorder, a truly … Continue reading →
Posted in ANXIETY, cellulitis, DEPRESSION, DIABETES, EMOTION, HEALTH, mens health, MENTAL HEALTH, NHS, OCD, RANT, TRUE STORIES, twitter, Uncategorized
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Tagged anxiety, BACK PAIN, blog, BLOOD SUGARS, CELLULITIS, CHRONIC PELVIC PAIN, CONTAMINATION, DEPESSION, DEPRESSION, DIABETES, DIABETIC, DOCTORS, EMOTION, Health, HERNIA, HYPO, INSULIN, LYMPHODEMA, LYMPTH GLANDS, MENS HEALTH, MENS MENTAL HEALTH, mental health, MIND, MIND CHARITY, NHS, Obsessive Compulsive Disorder, OCD, PELVIC PAIN, physical health, rant, SPONDYLOLISTHESIS, SUICIDAL, true stories, UK, WORRY
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BOTH PALS AND MY GP ARE ON MY SIDE! (LYMPHOEDEMA DIAGNOSIS UPDATE).
Monday was a relatively big day for me on the ‘get me better front’. If you read my last blog then you will have discovered how I had recently been given two opposing opinions by two Vascular Consultants…..in the space … Continue reading →
Posted in ANXIETY, cellulitis, DEPRESSION, EMOTION, HEALTH, LYMPH GLANDS, LYMPHOEDEMA, mens health, MENTAL HEALTH, NHS, OCD, RANT, TRUE STORIES, Uncategorized
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Tagged ACUTE MEDICAL UNIT, ANANTOMY, ANKLES, ANXIETIES, anxiety, CHRONIC PAIN, CHRONIC PELVIC PAIN, COMPLAINT, COMPRESSION, COMPRESSION STOCKINGS, DEPRESSION, DIAGNOSIS, DIARY, DISTESS, DOCTORS, duplex leg scan, EMOTION, ENGLAND, FRUSTRATING, GP, Health, health and beauty, HEALTH MATTERS, HEARTACHE, HELP, HOSPITAL, HOSPITAL DOCTORS, HOSPITALS, ILL, ILL HEALTH, INCOMPETENCE, LEG SCAN, LEGS, LEGS SWELLING, LOWER LIMBS, LYMPH GLANDS, lymphedema, LYMPHOEDEMA, LYMPHOGRAM, MALE HEALTH, MANUAL LYMPH DRAINAGE, manual lymphatic drainage, MEDICAL COMPLAINT, MEDICAL CONDITION, MEDICAL PROBLEM, MEDICINE, MENS HEALTH, mental health, MISDIAGNOSIS, MLD, NATIONAL HEALTH SERVICE, nerves, NHS, Obsessive Compulsive Disorder, OCD, OUTPATIENTS, PALS, PATIENT ADVICE LIAISON SERVICE, rant, REFERRAL, SCIATICA, SECOND OPINION, SOFT TISSUE, SOFT TISSUE MASSAGE, SUPPORT, SWELLING, SWOLLEN FEET, SWOLLEN LEGS, SWOLLEN LIMBS, true stories, TRUE STORY, UK, UK HEALTHCARE, UNCATEGORISED, UNWELL, UPDATE, VASCULAR, VASCULAR ASSESSMENT, VASCULAR CLINIC, VASCULAR CONSULTANT, WORRIES, WORRY, WRONG DIAGNOSIS
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TWO RUDDY DOCTORS WITH TOTALLY OPPOSITE OPINIONS…….SADLY IT LOOKS LIKE I HAVE LYPHOEDEMA AFTER ALL!
ME : (somewhat perplexed) “So do I need this manual lymph drainage or not now”? VASCULAR CONSULTANT NO2 : (shouty) “YOU DO NOT HAVE LYPHOEDEMA”! These two lines above were actually said when I had a follow-up consultation with a … Continue reading →
Posted in ANXIETY, DEPRESSION, EMOTION, FAMILY, FRIENDSHIP, HEALTH, LYMPH GLANDS, LYMPHOEDEMA, mens health, MENTAL HEALTH, NHS, RANT, TRUE STORIES, twitter, Uncategorized
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Tagged ALKALINE DIET, anxiety, BODY CRAMPS, CRAMPS, DEPRESSION, EMPATHY, FIGHTER, FIGHTING, friendship, GREEN DIET, Health, HEARTACHE, ILL HEALTH, LEG SWELLING, LEGS SWELLING, LYMPH GLANDS, LYMPHOEDEMA, manual lymphatic drainage, mental health, MISDIAGNOSIS, MLD, NHS, over acidic, POISON, rant, RUDE, rudeness, SETBACK, Social Media, SPIRIT, SWOLLEN LEGS, SYMPATHY, true stories, TRUE STORY, Twitter
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EXTREMELY ANXIOUS, WORRIED AND SCARED…THIS IS HOW I FEEL RIGHT NOW ABOUT GETTING MY LEG SCAN RESULTS TOMORROW!
This time tomorrow I will know the results of a leg scan I recently had……..AND I AM ABSOLUTELY BRICKING IT. It feels like the rest of my life and how it is going to pan out all rests on how … Continue reading →
Posted in ANXIETY, cellulitis, DEPRESSION, DIABETES, EMOTION, HEALTH, LYMPH GLANDS, LYMPHOEDEMA, mens health, MENTAL HEALTH, NHS, OCD, skin infection, TRUE STORIES, Uncategorized
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Tagged anxiety, awareness, CELLULITIS, DEPRESSION, DIABETES, DOCTORS, duplex leg scan, EMOTION, failure, Family, fear, frightened, frightenef, FRUSTRATED, frustration, Health, HOPE, hopelessness, LYMPH GLANDS, LYMPHOEDEMA, medical, MENS HEALTH, mental health, MISDIAGNOSIS, nervous, NHS, OCD, physical health, physio, pressure, REAL LIFE, scan, scan results, scared, SKIN INFECTION, SWOLLEN ANKLES, SWOLLEN FEET, SWOLLEN LEGS, SWOLLEN LOWER LIMBS, TRUE STORY, worried, WORRY, WRONG DIAGNOSIS
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