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UTTERLY COMPELLING AND UTTERLY BRILLIANT! River – Review of episode two.

Posted on October 21, 2015 by SCARFMAN

Last year I can still remember just how amazing it felt to watch the BBC1 crime/police drama Happy Valley. It was that brilliant that it sort of felt like a privilege to watch such a fantastic piece of work. I … Continue reading →

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‘THE LARS VON TRIER OF THE DETECTIVE WORLD’! RIVER- A review, episode one.

Posted on October 14, 2015 by SCARFMAN

Whenever I see a trailer of new police/detective drama series coming on, I tend to not pay much attention to it these days because I have reached saturation point with this genre. I am bored of this TV genre and … Continue reading →

Posted in BBC, BBC DRAMA, BBC ORIGINAL DRAMA, BBC1, COMEDY, death, DEPRESSION, DRAMA, EMOTION, ENTERTAINMENT, FRIENDSHIP, grief, MENTAL HEALTH, POPULAR CULTURE, TELEVISION, THE ARTS, TRIBUTE, TV, TV REVIEW, UK TV, Uncategorized | Tagged #abimorgan, #CRIMEDRAMA, #LARSVONTRIER, #STELLANSKARSGARD, #TELEVISIONREVIEW, #TVREVIEW, ABI MORGAN, ABI MORGN, ART HOUSE, ARTS, BBC, BBC CRIME DRAMA, BBC DRAMA, BBC1, BRITISH TELEVISION, BRITISH TV, CRIME, CRIME DRAMA, CRIME GENRE, crime narrative, DCI BANKS, death, DEPRESSION, DETECTIVE GENRE, EDDIE MARSAN, EMOTION, EUROPEAN CINEMA, FILM NOIR, friendship, Grief, HALLUCINATIONS, INNER DEMONS, JOHN RIVER, LARS VON TRIER, LAST TANGO IN HALIFAX, LAW AND ORDER UK, mental health, MOURNING, MURDER PLOT, narrative, NICOLA WALKER, PHILLIP SEYMOUR HOFFMAN, popular culture, REVIEW, RIVER, RIVER EPISODE ONE REVIEW, river review, RIVER REVIEWER, scandinavia, STELLAN SKARSGARD, SUSPENSE, SUSPENSION OF DISBELIEF, TELEVISION, TELEVISION REVIEW, THE ARTS, TV, TV CRITIC, tv review, VERA, WORLD CINEMA, WRITER ABI MORGAN | Leave a comment

‘HOPE IS THE ONLY THING THAT KEEPS ME ALIVE’ – MY ‘MIND’ SUMMER CREATIVE WRITING COMPETITION ENTRY ON THE THEME OF HOPE.

Posted on October 13, 2015 by SCARFMAN

HOPE IS THE ONLY THING THAT KEEPS ME ALIVE! Ever woken up wishing you had not? I do not mean because you fancy another half-hour or so in bed, I mean because your whole being is CRIPPLED with anxiety … Continue reading →

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I WILL ALWAYS BE A SOFT, SENSITIVE AND EMOTIONAL MAN. I AM SO GLAD THAT I AM TOO…….WELL, MOST OF THE TIME!

Posted on October 11, 2015 by SCARFMAN

I will always be a SOFT, SENSITIVE and EMOTIONAL MAN. This is a fact of life that I do not mind one bit. Well OK, at times I wish was a bit harder, bit rougher around the edges but that … Continue reading →

Posted in ANXIETY, BOOKS, COMEDY, DEPRESSION, EMOTION, FAMILY, FRIENDSHIP, MENTAL HEALTH, RANT, social media, SPORT, TRUE STORIES, twitter, UFC, Uncategorized | Tagged anxiety, BEST MATE, BIG BOYS DON'T CRY, books, CAMP, CHARACTER, CLOTHES, COLLEGE, COMEDY, CONFRONTATION, cricket, CRY, CRYING, del boy, del trotter, DEPRESSION, DRESS SENSE, EMOTION, EMOTIONAL, EMOTIONAL PERSONALITY, FAKE, FAKE HARDNESS, FAKE LOOK, FAKE PERSONALITY, Family, FASHION, father, FEELINGS, FEMININE SIDE, FEMININITY, FILMS, football, FRIENDHIP, FRIENDS, friendship, GIRLS, GROWING UP, GUILT, GUILTY, GYM, HAIRSTYLES, HARD, HARD LOOK, HARD WALK, IMMATURE, IMMATURITY, LAD CULTURE, LAD CUTURE, LADDISH CULTURE, LADS, LIFE IS BEAUTIFUL, LOLLY, LOVE PINK, MACHO, MANLY PURSUITS, MENTAL, mental health, MENTAL TOUGHNESS, METROSEXUAL, MICHAEL BISPING, MIND, MR.T, nerves, NICE GUY, ONLY FOOLS AND HORSES, OPEN EMOTIONALLY, OPINIONATED, PERCEPTION, PERSONALITY, PINK, rant, REALITY, RELATIONSHIP, scarf, SCARG, scarves, sense of humour, SENSIITIVE, SENSITIVE, SENSITIVENESS, SENSITIVITY, SHAVED HEAD, SHOWING YOUR FEELINGS, SHY, SOFT, SPORT, TIN-TIN, TRENDY, TRUE FEELING, TRUE FEELINGS, true stories, Twitter, ufc, UNCATEGORISED, Unexploded, Unexploded BY ALISON MACLEOD, UNI, UPSET, VULNERABILITY, WEDDINGS, WIMP, WORKING OUT, WORRY, WORRYING, YELLOW | Leave a comment

THEY’RE ALIVE…….I HAVE CORE MUSCLES AFTER ALL. MY DEVASTATING SUFFERING WITH CHRONIC PELVIC PAIN…..BUT HOPEFULLY NOT DEVASTATING FOR MUCH LONGER!

Posted on October 9, 2015 by SCARFMAN

IT IS OFFICIAL, MY CORE MUSCLES DO EXIST AND IT IS NO LONGER A MYTH! Yesterday was the first time in years that I did not feel pain upon walking. It shocked me at first if I am honest. I … Continue reading →

Posted in ANXIETY, DEPRESSION, EMOTION, HEALTH, MENTAL HEALTH, NHS, Uncategorized | Tagged ABDOMEN, anxiety, APPEARENCE, BACK PAIN, BARBER'S, BLADDER, BODY, BODY IMAGE ISSUES, CHRONIC BACTERIAL PROSTATITIS, CHRONIC PAIN, CHRONIC PELVIC PAIN, CONFIDENCE, CORE, CORE MUSCLES, cricket, CRICKET CAPTAIN, dad, DEGREE, DEPRESSION, DEVASTATION, DIET, DIETING, DISAPPOINTMENT, DISASTER, EMOTION, EXCITEMENT, EXERCISE, Family, FOOTBAL, football, GOLF, Health, ILL HEALTH, ILLNESS, INFLAMED PELVIS, INFLAMMATION, INSECURITY, IRRITABLE BLADDER, KEGEL KEGAL EXERCISES, LATE DAD, LOWER BACK PAIN, LOWER BACK PIAIN, male health problem, MEDICINE, MENS HEALTH, mental health, MOTIVATION, MUSCLES TOO TIGHT, MYTH, NHS, ORDEAL, OVERWEIGHT, pain, PELVIC, PELVIC FLOOR, PELVIC FLOOR TRIGGER POINT RELEASE, PELVIC GIRDLE PAIN, PELVIS, physical health, physio, physiotherapy, PITCH N PUTT, PROSTATE INFECTION, PROSTATITIS, QUERCETIN, SCHOOL CRICKET, SCHOOL FOOTBALL, SCIATIC NERVE, SCIATIC PAIN, SCIATICA, SELF LOATHING, SENSITIVE, soccer, SPORT, SPORTS FAN, TENNIS, TILTED PELVIS, TOO TIGHT, UNCATEGORISED, UNIVERSITY, urology | Leave a comment

“FATTY, BUM BUM…..” DAY SEVEN OF MY FIRST EVER DIET AND ALREADY I FEEL BETTER FOR IT!

Posted on September 29, 2015 by SCARFMAN

“Fatty, bum bum….oi Mister, can you lend us some money? Fatty, bum bum” These words got shouted at me one evening whilst I was walking home from the doctors in the early part of the summer this year. They were … Continue reading →

Posted in ANXIETY, DEPRESSION, EMOTION, FOOD, HEALTH, LYMPH GLANDS, LYMPHOEDEMA, mens health, MENTAL HEALTH, NHS, OCD, RANT, social media, TRUE STORIES, Uncategorized | Tagged ABUSE, anxiety, APPEARENCE, ATTRACTIVE, biscuits, BODY IMAGE, BODY IMAGE ISSUES, bread, calories, change of diet, CHRONIC BACTERIAL PROSTATITIS, CHRONIC PAIN, CHRONIC PELVIC PAIN, COMPRESSED NERVE, CONFIDENCE, crisps, DEPRESSED, DEPRESSION, DIABETES, DIAGNOSIS, DIET, dietician, DIETING, DOCTORS, eat too much, EATING HEALTHY, eating too much, EMOTION, EXERCISE, FAT, food, food blogger, GALLBLADDER, GIRLS, GPS, Graduating, GROWING UP, Health, HELPLESSNESS, HOSPITALS, HUNCHBACK, ILIOPSOAS, ILL HEALTH, ILLNESS, INFLAMED PELVIC, KEEP FIT, KICK UP THE BACK SIDE, LACK OF CONFIDENCE, LOOKS, LOWER BACK PAIN, LUMBAR SPINE BACK PAIN, LYMPH GLANDS, LYMPHOEDEMA, MENS HEALTH, mental health, MID LIFE CRISIS, MISDIAGNOSIS, MOTIVATION, nerves, NHS, nutrition, OCD, OVERWEIGHT, pain, PAINKILLER, PELVIC FLOOR, PELVIC FLOOR TRIGGER POINT RELEASE, PELVIC GIRDLE PAIN, PELVIC PAIN, physical health, PROSTATE, PROSTATE INFECTION, PROSTATITIS, PSOAS PAIN, rant, SCIATICA, SHY, SHYNESS, SLIM, slimline, SLIPPED VERTEBRATE, SOCIALISING, SPONDYLOLISTHESIS, SPORT, SPORTY, STREET ABUSE, STRESS, STRESSFUL, TILTED PELVIS, true stories, TRUE STORY, UGLY, UNATTRACTIVE, UNIVERSITY, VERBAL ABUSE, WAISTLINE, weight, white bread, WRONG DIAGNOSIS | 1 Comment

NEVER FELT SO ANGRY, FRUSTRATED AND DEPRESSED AS I DO RIGHT NOW….ESPECIALLY ABOUT THE OCD!

Posted on September 22, 2015 by SCARFMAN

ANGRY, FRUSTRATED AND DEPRESSED…….this is how I feel right now. I have been feeling like this for at least the last three years if I am honest, but last night as I went to bed these feelings were utterly overwhelming … Continue reading →

Posted in ANXIETY, COMPLIMENT, DEPRESSION, EMOTION, HEALTH, LYMPH GLANDS, LYMPHOEDEMA, NHS, OCD, skin infection, TRUE STORIES, twitter, Uncategorized | Tagged ANGER, ANGRY, ANGUISH, anxiety, ANXIOUS, BACK PAIN, banter, BLOGGING, CAREER, CATHARTIC, CHRONIC PELVIC PAIN, CONTAMINATION, CONTAMINATION FLARE-UP, DEPRESSED, DEPRESSION, DOCTORS, DOG DIRT, DOG DIRT FEAR, DOG DIRT PHOBIA, Family, fear, FIGHT, FLARE-UP, FRUSTRATED, frustration, GALLBLADDER REMOVED, GALLBLADDER SURGERY, GPS, Health, HEARTACHE, HEARTBREAK, HERNIA SUGERY, HOPE, ILL HEALTH, JOB, JOBLESS, laughter, LIFE, LOWER BACK PAIN, LUMBAR SPINE BACK PAIN, MALE HEALTH, MALE MENTAL HEALTH, MENS MENTAL HEALTH, mental health, MENTAL HEALTH SUPPORT, MENTAL HEALTH TREATMENT, MIND, MIND MANCHESTER, MIND MENTAL HEALTH CHARITY, MIND UK, MISERY, nerves, NHS, NO HOPE, O.C.D, Obsessive Compulsive Disorder, OCD, OCD ACTION UK, OCD UK, PELVIC GIRDLE PAIN, PELVIC PAIN, physical health, sad, SADNESS, SELF HARM, SINUS SURGERY, SPONDYLOLISTHESIS, SUFFERING, SUICIDAL THOUGHTS, SUICIDE, SUPPORT, UNIVERSITY, UNLOADING, UPSET, WRITER, writing, WRITING CAREER | Leave a comment

CRIPPLED…………………….WITH FEAR! MY CONTINUING AWFUL STRUGGLE WITH OCD!

Posted on July 17, 2015 by SCARFMAN

Ever woken up wishing you had not? I do not mean because you fancy another half-hour or so in bed, I mean because your entire being is CRIPPLED with anxiety and fear? Fear about confronting the day ahead because you … Continue reading →

Posted in ANXIETY, DEPRESSION, EMOTION, HEALTH, LYMPH GLANDS, LYMPHOEDEMA, mens health, MENTAL HEALTH, NHS, OCD, RANT, TRUE STORIES, Uncategorized | Tagged anxiety, ASPERGER'S SYNDROME, BORDERLINE PSYCHOTIC, CAN'T COPE, CONTAMINATION, CRIPPLED WITH FEAR, DEPRESSION, DIARY, DOCTORS, DOCTORS SURGERY, DOG DIRT, DOG DIRT PHOBIA, DOG POO, EMOTION, fear, fed up, HEALH, HELP, HELPLESSNESS, ILL, ILL HEALTH, LIVERPOOL, LOWER BACK PAIN, LYMPH GLANDS, LYMPHOEDEMA, MALE MENTAL HEALTH, MENS HEALTH, MENTAL HEALTH STIGMA, MENTAL SUFFERING, MIND OCCUPATION, nerves, NHS, NO HOPE, Obsessive Compulsive Disorder, OCD, OCD STRUGGLES, PELVIC PAIN, PERSONAL, physical SUFFERING, PSYCHOSIS, rant, REAL LIFE, rib pain, SEVERE OCD, stigma, SUFFERING, SUICIDAL, SUICIDAL THOUGHTS, TORMENT, TRUE STORY, UNCATEGORISED, UNIVERSITY, WORRIES | Leave a comment

ANOTHER SETBACK AND BODY BLOW……….I DO HAVE LYMPHOEDEMA AFTER ALL!

Posted on July 3, 2015 by SCARFMAN

A week ago I had appointment at a local hospital where my worst fears were confirmed, I do indeed have a lifelong condition called lymphoedema(in my lower legs) after all. I say after all because I have had this possible … Continue reading →

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ENOUGH OF THE DIABETIC SELF-PITY……THINGS COULD BE A LOT WORSE!

Posted on June 16, 2015 by SCARFMAN

I know this blog is going to annoy some of my fellow diabetics out there but I can not hold my silence any longer. At the moment I am having a terrible flare-up with my Obsessive Compulsive Disorder, a truly … Continue reading →

Posted in ANXIETY, cellulitis, DEPRESSION, DIABETES, EMOTION, HEALTH, mens health, MENTAL HEALTH, NHS, OCD, RANT, TRUE STORIES, twitter, Uncategorized | Tagged anxiety, BACK PAIN, blog, BLOOD SUGARS, CELLULITIS, CHRONIC PELVIC PAIN, CONTAMINATION, DEPESSION, DEPRESSION, DIABETES, DIABETIC, DOCTORS, EMOTION, Health, HERNIA, HYPO, INSULIN, LYMPHODEMA, LYMPTH GLANDS, MENS HEALTH, MENS MENTAL HEALTH, mental health, MIND, MIND CHARITY, NHS, Obsessive Compulsive Disorder, OCD, PELVIC PAIN, physical health, rant, SPONDYLOLISTHESIS, SUICIDAL, true stories, UK, WORRY | Leave a comment

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UTTERLY COMPELLING AND UTTERLY BRILLIANT! River – Review of episode two.

‘THE LARS VON TRIER OF THE DETECTIVE WORLD’! RIVER- A review, episode one.

THEY’RE ALIVE…….I HAVE CORE MUSCLES AFTER ALL. MY DEVASTATING SUFFERING WITH CHRONIC PELVIC PAIN…..BUT HOPEFULLY NOT DEVASTATING FOR MUCH LONGER!

NEVER FELT SO ANGRY, FRUSTRATED AND DEPRESSED AS I DO RIGHT NOW….ESPECIALLY ABOUT THE OCD!

CRIPPLED…………………….WITH FEAR! MY CONTINUING AWFUL STRUGGLE WITH OCD!

ANOTHER SETBACK AND BODY BLOW……….I DO HAVE LYMPHOEDEMA AFTER ALL!

ENOUGH OF THE DIABETIC SELF-PITY……THINGS COULD BE A LOT WORSE!

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